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You told them that my father was not taking care of your china as he packed. The word you used was “cavalier”. Now you can say all you want about me and my attitude. You can say I have a “tone” in my voice. But when you start talking about my father’s packing skill- I am ready to haul you up by your shirt and punch you right in the fucking mouth.
I was mad all Friday night - poor Cat had to put up with me ranting as we went out to dinner. I got mad on Saturday when I remember your words to Stevens Van Lines about my crew. By Sunday I just chalked you up as another bitch you meet in life- moving on.
But this morning- when the inspector told me on another job he came out on to talk to me…all the list of complaints you had… I really just wanted to get in a car, drive the 100 miles and hunt your fucking ass down. I am still mad enough to spit.
Stevens started on me again and I told them... agents are needed by other moving companies every day. Not like a lot of movers are staying in the military due to all the changes of late. I can find someone else to work for within a week. If they want to take the word of one customer over the years I have worked for them- do it. Just say the word. They backed down. Huh! Fuckers...
So this morning when Inspector asked me to address the comments you made I said “Nope. I am upset and you do not want me to tell you what I think of her.” The inspector smiled at me and I knew he was not there to fuss at me. He told me when you moved into the home 8 months ago you had problems with that mover, and you must of gotten in trouble at work to be moved out so soon. He tells me he had meet her, was still dealing with you on your last claim.
I asked him what he though of you and he just smiled and said “She has problems.“ He also told me the idea of Dad packing “Cavalier” just made everyone at the base laugh. “Lowest claims of 23 military movers in the state and she tells us that- we all just laughed. Now your attitude….” He smiles and I told him to kiss my butt. After he stop laughing he said not to worry about it as he was not taking it any further then asking me what happen. It's dropped- closed.
Cavalier…. I would love to show that woman just how cavalier I can be about her shit, her high value cheap ass not a complete set of chip china. I insulted you because I question the value you was putting on it- guess what? That is my right…just as it was Dad’s right to show you all your chips in said china.
Still want to punch the bitch in the damn mouth. Fucking bitch…my father is the best packer I know with 55 years under his belt. He has packed china that was worth over a thousand dollars for one place setting. You just need to stop thinking your shit is all that…when its not.
Fuck you and if I could get my hands on you I would haul off and slap you for the hell of it. Give me 30 days, 6 months out of the military moves… it would be worth it.
*Flys in and unleashes the super soaker on the Rat. As she watches the steam rise, she nods* Yup folks she is steamed.
I believe that in military bases you can be thrown out of the house for being too disruptive to the neighborhood. i could be wrong but I seem to remember hearing that somewhere.
Was rating last night before bed and found his profile. Now I don't know if its him or not- you know people lie on here so....
But I tell you... *sexy growl* Helllooo sexy! Those eyes just stay with you. If this is not him and is some model- damn he is all that and a bag of chips.
;)
Just came online and found a message from him. Very gentelman like- thanking me for my comment on his profile.
LOL
Have to say I struggle to not put a comment like "God but you are one sexy ass male. Love to get my teeth in you."
O.O What? Its a vampire site... that is all I meant. But nooooo... I was a good Rat. I made a comment about how he comment about being honest on his profile. If he was.... when did I get so jaded?
Anyway... *fans self as she heads off to bed* those eyes just do it for me... and the chest... arms... smile.... hair that begs to be tugged as you pull his lips up from kissing on my ....
Ok- maybe a cold shower before bed. And some very nice dreams.
You know those messages you see in journals? Guys who send women PM's that are "Hey cutie- how are ya?" "Would you like to suck...my blood?"
*sigh*
I never get those any more. :( Must be my picture.
lol
Made a big dent in the house cleaning after Dead Stinky Fred left. Moved my bed back into my bedroom, about ten loads of laundry of curtains, towels, bedding. Dusting, mopping, cleaning baths. I did get my carpet cleaned Friday so... all that is left is getting my guestroom back in order. That means bringing the single bed back from the warehouse.
And showed the rental house three times today.
*sits in her clean cool living room with candles lite, and a nice drink, enjoying her home*
As Chief Troll well, I have to harass, i-, it is a very difficult job. I have to harass every year - financial year, you know, A-, April to April, all the half naked avatars on VR. Well ho-, the trouble is, I can only really harass somebody if I am talking to their chest, an' here you are expecting me to look you in the eye, and it is a bit tricky.
I never got those messages, think it was my attitude on my profile? I'm pro NRA and will gladly throw the switch for the death penality...*snorts*
18:37 Jun 27 2008 Times Read: 1,558
Morrigon inspired me to write a new rating stamp.
"Warning- this is a stamp. Do not message me with any request for rerate or to "chat". This is only a stamp meaning I do not care about you or the profile I am leaving it on. If there had been an actual profile worth something to comment on- you would of not seen this stamp. Thank you."
After you raised such a bitch - you was not even there this morning. We got to cool our heels for a hour and a half waiting for you. By the way the neighbor dog's name is Ruby. I know as he kept calling for the dog. Nice quiet street too.
So... back to the office after a total waste of a morning to find the military job that was to be picked up yesterday by a long distance driver (not mine) that we packed Wednesday had a problem. He did not get all the shipment- and he need me to go up and pick up the last 30 or so items. Overflow- happens sometimes. I bring the stuff in and they send in another truck to get it. O-O
Ok. I found a guy that will go with me, so sis called shipper to tell her we was on the way... and she tells her that she did not want anyone from our company to return after the remark the "Woman" made to her. WHF? I was the only woman in the crew and by gods I never said a word to you bitch.
Maybe the driver had a wife Wednesday? They might of gotten into a fuss? Who knows. But really- that is biting your nose off. What? You just going to leave your beds/tv/boxes/patio stuff/ headboard and footboard??
Lady- you need to calm your ass down and get your move done. Hell- I am not going to do anything to your shit. E9 is not the rank you have to start shit like this... I am telling ya.
She tells me she is calling the Base then hangs up on me. --.-- Fine, you do that.
Ooppss!
Did I forget to tell you that the base is closed on Friday?
Did I also forget to tell you we are picking the shit up today or it will be next Tuesday?
Gosh.... I guess we will wait to see how long it takes you to realise the Base's Transportation office is closed on Friday as they do a 4 day/ 10 hour work week, and when you do- guess what? I am going to be busy as you waited too long.
Go get 'em rat. Some people just think that they are above themselves. Show her the truth.
I'm going home to a sleeping pill and a nice cool bed in a messy home.
20:32 Jun 26 2008 Times Read: 1,595
**Rant Warning**
So I had a the carpet cleaners coming in the morning. I just have to have the carpet steamed clean after Stinky Dead Fred deal. I have waited a week for them to work me in.
Planned the morning off to do it. Four freaking hours is all I wanted off... just half a god damn day.
Then a call from a company I do work with. They have trouble on a military move, catching all kind of hell as the driver of the truck just unloaded and when asked to unpack- he and his helpers left. Just got in the truck and left.
That right there will get you pulled out of service for 30 days, easy.
The man who owns this company (about ten times bigger then mine)called himself and asked me for help. Now at 3:00 pm its not like I can shit work hands for in the morning- reason we stay booked in the summer. He has two bases on his ass- he just needs us to unpack this larger job and try to make the customer happy. "Give her what ever she wants." In other words- kiss her ass and try to talk her out of her shit fit.
---.--- FINE!
Long story short- leaving at 7:00am with Dad to unpack. Carpet cleaner put of till after the holiday ( July 4th)
Well that just pissed the living fuck out of me. God damn it.... I want to move back into my bedroom! I want to wash all the drapes, and rugs and get my home back in order! I want my nice clean haven back that is known as my home!!
Fuck it.
But I also have a new toy I have to pay for, known as A/C, and he will be paying me nicely for this...so...... still- Screw is sideways and give it a dill pickle, damn it.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!
And yes Birdy you can get onto me for using the GD word- but NOT anytime soon, damn it. I gave a warning.
All I can say is- If you don’t have a pot to piss in then don’t stand and fucking nick pick the rental house we own.
Bitch.
Then call me and ask when you can pick up the keys as you was sure there would be no problem with the application/ credit check.
Fucking hold your breath till I call.
“Sorry- but I don’t think you will be happy in the home, so I am not renting it to you. You should fine a home that will please you.”
Back stroke all you want, the answer is no. It will set there empty before you step foot in it again. Keep pushing me and I will tell you the real reason- You are a bitch.
Sad- this was my first showing. Its going to be a long weekend. *sigh*
Going to talk about shoes. This morning as I sat to put my work shoes on I recall the saying of “Walk a thousand miles in my shoes.” Tennis shoes with a few stains. I need to wash them but as I look at the soles I might just need to replace them. Been a while since I brought new shoes, the support in these about shot.
I tried to remember where the stains came from- motor oil? Red marker? These shoes has seen me thru a lot- standing on my feet all day, climbing stairs, driving for hours, sitting at my desk with one foot hooked on the bottom drawer of my desk as I made phone calls, rain sleet and hell. *grins*
I wonder about other work shoes and the jobs I have always wanted to try. Sensible dress shoes of a accountant, or a personal shopper. Fashionable shoes of a Makeup artist. Steel toes of a factory worker or a heavy duty equipment driver. Or maybe nice support shoes of a veterinarian assistant, assistant chief, or a party planner.
Why am I wearing these shoes? I had the offer of collage, of stepping out into the world. Was it because these shoes was just so comfy, safe and known? I do hate changes- more so when I was younger then now. Unlike the normal 17 year old who wanted to get away- I wanted to stay. Of course I also enjoyed the job back then too. Still do on most days. But now? I slide my shoe on and ties it laces up. If the shoe fits… wear it comes to mind.
Yesterday I got my brand new 3 ton Trane A/C heater unit with a heat pump. Yes- I have been without A/C for little over two weeks. Yes- when it rain it floods. But as this unit is replacing the one that came with the trailer 23 years ago.... can't bitch. :)
$4,100.00 unit and it comes with a digtal control panel, my first one. Last night- played with it and set it to 74. Too hot.
Set it to 72 for sleep- woke up cold and pulled the blanket over me.
This morning woke up hot. Really- when I start having heat flashes I am soooo screwed.
Left it on 75 this morning when I left for work before dawn.
Came home to a cool, but little hot home. Drop it to 72 and got cold as I ate dinner.
Going to try 73 tonight.
lol Its like Goldie Locks. Too cold...too hot. I just need to find the "Just Right!"
dammit why can't men be perfect like me? Or at least come with dials on them...
heh heh
I like just having a fan. feels gooood on the skin
23:31 Jun 24 2008 Times Read: 1,678
Army Wives is a show that I enjoy. One of the ladies is dealing with the death of her daughter and they played this song that has stayed with me. It's by Laura Browne Sorenson and it's called I Will Think of You. I just wish she had a CD. Or that I knew how to post the song I downloaded here so you can hear it. It is very touching song. She does have a myspace page and its playing on it. :)
Spending some time doing the numbers this morning.
#3 moves completed in 7 days, plus two Sundays placing trucks by me and my father. #1760 miles driven to and from the jobs.
Job #1- Estimated 12,000 lbs. and it came in at 9,800 lbs. No claims. Shipper happy with move.
Job #2- Estimated 23,240 lbs and it came in at 17,720 lbs. This one also had the 34 steps to the street. One claim of a coat rack post being broken. Shipper was not upset, said to forget it, happy with move.
Job #3- Estimated 14,000 lbs and it came in at 16,700 lbs. ( One of my off days. lol ) This one returned to the 34 step house from above. No claim. Shipper happy with move.
Total estimated weight for the three was 49,240 lbs. Ship as 44,220 lbs. *Give you a idea- average room in a home is 1,500 lbs.* That makes me 5,020 lbs under, and below my estimated cost for the moves.
After labor, fuel, food and drinks I purchase for the crew, tips I am giving the four man as they did a fantastic job by showing up on time and working so hard day after day, still made a nice amount for the company.
ROFL- oh hell that is one heck of a mistake. I would correct it but then I would lose your comment. :) And that I will not do. Yeap - you guys know I don't edit my stuff here. lol
13:19 Jun 24 2008 Times Read: 1,736
In the office and my brother walks down from mom and dad's home bringing two biscuit and one piece of sausage. Since we been so busy Mom has been sending leftovers down to my sister.
He walks in and puts the napkin on my desk and tells me we can fight over it. He leaves and I call out to my sis if she wanted a sausage biscuit. She tells me no- to eat it. She said she would take the plain biscuit.
So she gets up to get a drink and she looks at me and tells me "It wasn't meant for you...but you go ahead and eat it." *Sad eyes...mommy did not send it to me?....that is mean...she loves me too.... right?*
She laughs at my look as she turns and stub her toe on a toolbox sitting on the floor.
Been busy these last few weeks at work. Not spent much time on VR at all. And you know what? I am starting to see I don't miss it as much as I use too.
I mean- I still come on to check journals of my friends to see that life is alright with them. I check the House Eternal to see what wonderful funny thing is being said. I wish I was in a talking mood to visit with the four or five people I do talk with. Cat called me yesterday and I did not even feel like talking on the phone I am so worn out.
Back to VR- Other then the 20 mins or so that it takes me to do the the journals and House, I really don't do anything else.
*wonders what kind of Coffee Morrigon is drinking* Coffee that makes you want to clean......Riiiiighhhhttttt
How much action do you have in the toilet?
00:56 Jun 21 2008 Times Read: 1,898
I got a question for the person who came up with the motion sensor for bathroom lights. At a BP Gas station today and when you enter the single toilet bathroom the sensor turned on the light and fan.
Now.... lets just say my belly was hurting. So I am sitting on the toilet for a minute or so... and the lights, fan turn off. Total darkness but for a little light from around the door. O.o
I sat, thinking of what to do and started waving my arms. When the light came on I found the sensor next to the door. Took one more time of flinging my arms around before I was done.
Now why would you make something like that? I mean... what if it went out while you was wiping? I mean... how much action do you do while you shit? lol
Gawd you women need to be men. If you're a real man and you have the trots then you wait till you are doubled over in pain, and then and only then do you make a dash for the toilet, giving the bum's rush to whoever is occupying the toilet at the time. A minute is fifty-five seconds too long!
We have these in the bathrooms at work. Luckily they have lights in the stalls that stay on even when the main lights go off.
The managment at you station are idiots. Those units are programable and you can keep the light on, once activated for a varying amout of time. They should be able to allow plenty of time for a well lit dump.
23:49 Jun 18 2008 Times Read: 1,942
maliciousIntent63 returned my rate:
Rating: 4
Comment: Thanks for the encouragement...
*smerks* Whatttt? Did my four bother you? When all you have is a smart ass comment and the normal gothic pictures?
Poor baby. I soooo sorry....
NOT!
Brown stain in a stinky diaper.
And the #6 on my portfolio from wickedways.... sorry my pictures are not as wonderful as yours.
Be who you are... its the only way to be yourself.
00:14 Jun 17 2008 Times Read: 2,009
Reading a lot of journals in the two years I been a member of VR. And you know what gets me- people who say "I am not going to be nice anymore!" Or something along the lines of "The bitch is back!"
I just don't get that. Just be you. Be the person you are- mad, angry, bitchy, nice, sad, happy then own it and be who you are.
Why put on airs? Why try to get along with everyone? Why care what others think of you? Ok... ok... I do care what people think of me to a point. But will it kill me if someone called me a bad name and hated me? Told me to fuck off?
No. Why? Because I am sure I need it sometimes. Hell- I know I do.
Just.... be who you are.
If you are not how do you know who your friends are? How do you keep that fake image going? Are you afraid people will not like you, the true you?
If so then maybe you need to look into the kind of person you are.
Jonathon seagull discovered that boredom and fear and anger are the reasons that a gull's life is so short, and with these gone from this thought, he lived a long fine life indeed.
Then those who live wretched miserable lives like Schubert (who of died a pauper of syphilis and was buried in a paupers grave), Van Gough (who was about as wretched as you get), ... etc. They are the ones who live in boredom and anger and are the ones I admire most.
There are a lot of people in general who do not have a solid identity. They bend and sway with the wind, saying things for moment that really are just appeasements.
I'd try and defend her but I'm stilll laughing too hard cause it's true so true lol
Ahhhh my tub is back!
16:07 Jun 15 2008 Times Read: 2,056
Simple things make me happy-
A dark bedroom
A cool home
A pair of nice sheets
A shower curtain that doesn't attach itself to my ass. lol
Just took a long shower in my nice big tub. :) Not one grab and hold- not once pulling the wet shower curtain off my ass.
I even had the room to use my salts. Philosophy gingerbread man salt body scrub is the bomb. :)
I love that stuff. And my skin..*rubs leg* is so smooth and clean feeling. Exfoliation is good for the skin. And for my mood. Washing off the bad, to let the good show.
you forgot to mention a nice smelling house, has dead fred been forgotten already?
14:46 Jun 15 2008 Times Read: 2,068
8:17 am finds me sleeping so well until the phone rings. Its Dad. "You up?" Rumble from me then a "Yeah" "Are we going to work today?"
Great- Dad is looking forward to work today more then me. "We can't put the trucks on the road till after church people get out. Told you- they don't want the road blocked till then."
"Oh. Then I am going after food for me and your mother. You want anything?"
O.o Should I not be asking him that on Father's Day. "Let me get dress and I can cook you both..." "Nope- we have to work the rest of the day- I will see you in a few hours. Go back to sleep."
Sorry sugar but your Dad began his father's day by calling you on the phone and talking to you even about something that he didn't really need to say, just to make contact with his daughter on father's day. Sounds like you're doing a pretty darn good job to me since he sought you out so early in the day. He's also making sure he will be seeing you today, it's all in your perspective hun. I really envy you *hugs*
Oh my gods… the “Woman” of the guy just called. She started with how she was going to school to be a lawyer and how she was going to contact a attorney to sue us. “And what would that be for exactly?” Because they are drawing disability. I am only renting to people who have higher income, who have jobs. She never heard of a income requirement on anything in her life.
O.o
First- if you are going to be a attorney then you should know what fraud is. And you might want to warn the boyfriend against telling people he works for money under the table as he draws SSI.
Two- Income requirement is the same way credit card companies check you. Try to go to a car dealer and buy a $425.00 a month payment car with only $600.00 income. Guess what? You will not get it. It’s not just me… its everyone out to get you.
Three- if I was discriminating against poor folks would I have a nice house that rents for $425.00? A three bedroom, two bath, living room, and kitchen with hardwood floors? I rent my homes so people will stay in them, meaning they are under priced on rent. I have not even put a ad in the paper and already got 7 applications on it.
And four- Don’t even try to blow smoke up my ass as you are too young and stupid to even fucking wipe my feet in a fight of brains. I know more about the law then you ever will. I hope to god the government is not paying to send you to collage as it’s a waste of money going by what is coming out of your mouth. As a person who pays her freaking taxes- I want my money back. Get the hell off my phone and stay off it.
I slam the phone down.
----.----
Sis tells me I am not allowed to answer the phone anymore today.
We have a house empty. Rent on it is $425.00. Just answer a call from a man who wanted to rent it. I asked questions and one of those is “How much do you make? Where do you work at?” He doesn’t work, but makes $600.00 a month. How? Disability. Its him and his "woman" who also draws.
O.o
“Where do you rent at now?” He pays $525.00 now at a apartment that is one of the nicer ones in town. I also know those apartments do not include anything in the rent. “How do you pay $525.00 when you only get $600.00?” Can we say Meth lab? I mean… come on.
“I do some odd jobs here and there…under the table.” Well that just piss me off as I pay taxes on my income. “No. You do not meet the income requirement.” “What? I pay more now and never been late with my rent.” He is getting pissed off now. Yeah me- been at work less then a hour and looky- my first pissing off.
“You have rent, electric, cable or dish tv, internet, food, phone, car payments, insurance on car, and with a disability check I can not get anything from you as I can’t garnish those. You do not meet the income requirements, so you will not be renting any property from me.”
Fucker called me a snobby bitch, that I could “Fucking take that house and stick it up your ass!” ---.---
I giggled and told him “Could you not see me in front of the empty house, bent over with my pants down at my ankles pointing at my bare ass, saying “Ok- get in there!” Nothing but silence from him.
I hung the phone up as I kept giggling. Some people just don’t get my humor.
Wow...aside from the blokes attitude, I'm shocked at the fact that you're only charging $425 for a house! I pay equivalent of $600 for a tiny 1-bedroom flat (apartment)!
I'm in the wrong country...
But good for you, having principles! Why should tax-dodgers get away with everything?!
I would love to have a place that cheap and be nice.
And they must be from out of the country or something to not have heard of income requirement.
02:08 Jun 13 2008 Times Read: 2,235
You know... I gave you a four because your profile sucked. Still does even after you got a paid membership. Hate to tell you- free members have better profiles. Learn to freaking ass spell, would you? I mean...for me to comment on it.... it's bad.
Yes- you came and gave me a four back with no comment. Gods but that just showed me, didn't it?
*Rat clutch her chest... acting like she is having a heart attack...moaning.* I am coming to join you low rated profiles... I am not worthy of being in the shadows of these great profiles. I am not worthy to even rate another with my stamp. Oh great Cancer... save me a place on the low rated profile shelf in the VR heaven.
*smerks*
But I have one question... why are you coming back all the time? What? You think I am going to change my rate? How about you change your sucky profile? How about you put some effort into it?? How about you realise I don't care about your 4???
Or better yet...
How about you stop being the slimy snot bugger in a jackass's nose?
CODE BLUE STAT!! There,there,Have you fixed up in no time..now dammit,I warned you about getting too close to those snotbuggers,they'll choke you everytime.
Woah! Who's pissed in MY Rat's cornflakes? In other words boys and girls...WHO do I need to kill? Keep in mind the Wolfy LOVES HER RAT....so piss her off at your own risk, and the Canis lupus will eat your ass.
Trust me.... some of these people. Like today- the men moved her couch and loveseat 5 times before she was happy. Men was ready to lose it.... but you just have to keep everyone happy and calm.
No cussing. No kidding around like we usually do. People coming in and out to say hello or goodbye so you have to wait for them to get free to tell you where to place items. But you keep those smiles and Yes Sir, Yes Madam going.
Add the heat, the early mornings, and me worring about the jobs with little sleep....
Ah Sevenn, I got some uncles who make their own but moonshine don't taste nothing like rum, it has a lot more bite to it. Anyway Rat likes her booze in pretty bottles and not mason jars *ducks the smack I feel coming*
Stinky Fred had company. Found in the insulation was one larger fur covered bones, with a boney tail. The second was smaller.
Puuuuue!
To far gone to tell if its a cat- but the man said it looked more like a possium. Ewww!
And of the four people working- three threw up dealing with it.
But this morning... as smeel is fading out of my room. :) Now to get the insulation put back in, clean the carpet and spend a day cleaning... and I can have my room and bathroom back.
Yeah!
Might be a while because the rest of this month going to be busy- lots of long days. Might not be on VR as much.
Open all the windows and turn the fans on. Hopefully the stench will be gone before you know it now that the decaying relatives of Fred have vacated the home. Good luck rat!
Popcorn is a popping, soda on ice. A/C is running its little heart out in the 100 degree heat.
And I have DVD's to watch. :)
Sweeney Todd
Untraceable
One Missed Call
The Eye
Golden Compass
Mad Money
And Battlestar tonight.
Life is good. Now only if the man who called me today, heard I had a need for insulation replacement would show up in the morning. He said he will be here at 8:00 am.
I am excited.. really. Want to see? *Me excited for about two seconds* Ok... I know ... I know. I have to think positive about this.
Maybe a little rum with the coke will help with that? Hmmmm... maybe. Well is sure can't hurt, now can it? lol
Here now and I shared my ice cream with you! I can handle some Fred action... lol
Don't worry... not gone crazy yet. :)
16:31 Jun 06 2008 Times Read: 2,472
You ever wondered what is in the darkness? Is it hate? Is it love? Is it evil? Is it good? Each of us see darkness differently. But we all are drawn to it or we would not be on this site. Books and films are one thing- but I am talking true darkness.
Has it touched you? Has it slide along your skin in the goose bumps that covered you? Has the shiver up your back, the seconds filled with it effected you in the way you see life? Has it broken you heart as it takes from you that which you love?
Have you looked into the eyes of evil? The cold eyes of it as it looks at you? Have you witness it? The ability of humans to hurt others, hurt animals that never harmed them is just a tip of the darkness. Do we even know what Darkness can do?
Demons are seen as a form of darkness. But what makes a demon? If the demon does what it is taught to do- it sees nothing wrong. It is us who sees it as evil, as Darkness. Morals have to play into this but what if your morals change?
What if you become more dark? I have. I see more gray around me, see the Darkness and have even welcomed it to visit. Visit. What a strange way to say it. What if it doesn’t want to leave? What if I decide to let it stay? No- the morals drilled into me since birth would not let it…at least not yet.
What if the darkness offers you a peace? The “I don’t care” of it does have a appeal. The ability to hurt others and take what you want. To let the evil thoughts have freedom to grow, to take the actions you suppress.
But is that all the Darkness is? Us losing our morals? Is that all that is separating us from the Darkness?
**thinking to use as my new profile. Little to much? lol*
Ooh yeah, that'd be cool, specially if you include lots of shadowy images and stuff :-)
13:10 Jun 06 2008 Times Read: 2,485
Video made during Elemental and I vacation last year. Has it been only a year? Seems soooo much longer. Anyway- the one morning I did not feel like jumping out of bed she laid in her bed and "reminded" cherp at me for her normal sweets I would bring back after I watched the sunrise and spent a hour or so on the beach.
:) Its me talking but you can hear her laugh, and saying "Oh well" at the end. Can you tell Birdy is not a morning person? LOL
Yes- YOU WILL go this winter or I will.... take the trimmer to ya hair Cat. You have to go with us Con Con. We never been on a vacation all three of us. :(
12:35 Jun 06 2008 Times Read: 2,486
Not for the video but song: Styx - Too Much Time on my Hands
iv been lying in wait and want for so very long. im not a ruthless killer, just confused. im a fire element being, naturally considering my demonic lineage. im gaining some control over my fire. its really quite simple now that i know what fuel to use. being an emotional being iv learned that certain emotions fuel that inner fire. i give way and submit entirely to these feelings to gain power. whether it be anger and rage, or fear and despair, ..... or lust and passion, giving into these feelings (mentally not physically) opens up the flud gates and i burn white hot. and it is during these times is when little can stop what im pursuing.
Comment:
Forget the therapist- what you need is an exorcist.
Perhaps this is the answer to your stinky Fred problem. Maybe there IS NO DEAD ANIMAL...maybe you're haunted by a really stinky ghost. I think you should give this serious consideration....maybe you offended some stinky person in life and this is their revenge!
*digs out the holy water, and gas mask* Don't tell me I have to live in a bubble around you Doe.
I wonder why the handles on the stove melted. Should of known it was your fart.
lol
19:44 Jun 05 2008 Times Read: 2,545
Profile:
red hair , blue eyes, pale skin, loving heart. Avege body(toned). I love to be bit, and i like a man who is not afraid to be a little rough, trust me it takes alot for me to break. I also looking for someone who will treat me like a person not a gender , in others words a little pain to get the point accross. someone who is a little controlling and gelous, to me its sexy and shows how much someone cares. well hopefully i will find my dark prince. so if u bit me, and i bite back then u might just be my immortal dark prince.
The House has a list- sort of a warning to all the new members. Elemental finally made the list....
Birdy pokes the Rat in the arm with her wing. "See? I made the list." Poke poke... poke. "I have a warning now." Poke. Poke. "See?" Birdy walks off, all regal.
Rat rubs the spot she got several hard pokes at. "There is no living with her now"
*Rat grins...then runs from the Birdy*
LOL
Hey- she is the one who did Forum editing on the phone with me last night.
Well to tell you the truth... *shifty eyes*... I don't know who or what it is. It was there when I got into the House. But they say... and don't tell anyone this... *looks around and whispers*... that Images feeds the ex members to it.
A warning on birdie!!!! she's the nice one of us... Ya'll are starting to scare me over there in Eternal.
PRIVATE ENTRY
14:00 Jun 05 2008 Times Read: 2,578
• • • • PRIVATE JOURNAL ENTRY • • • •
Email from sissy.
13:47 Jun 05 2008 Times Read: 2,583
NOAH
In the year 2008, the Lord came unto Noah, who was now living in the United States , and said:
Once again, the earth has become wicked and over-populated, and I see the end of all flesh before me. Build another Ark and save 2 of every living thing along with a few good humans.
He gave Noah the blueprints, saying: You have 6 months to build the Ark before I will start the unending rain for 40 days and 40 nights.
Six months later, the Lord looked down and saw Noah weeping in his yard - but no Ark.
Noah! He roared, I'm about to start the rain! Where is the Ark ?
Forgive me, Lord, begged Noah, 'but things have changed.
I needed a building permit.
I've been arguing with the inspector about the need for a sprinkler system.
My neighbors claim that I've violated the neighborhood zoning laws by building the Ark in my yard and exceeding the height limitations.
We had to go to the Development Appeal Board for a decision.
Then the Department of Transportation demanded a bond be posted for the future costs of moving power lines
and other overhead obstructions, to clear the passage for the Ark 's move to the sea.
I told them that the sea would be coming to us, but they would hear nothing of it.
Getting the wood was another problem. There's a ban on cutting local trees in order to save the spotted owl.
I tried to convince the environmentalists that I needed the wood to save the owls - but no go!
When I started gathering the animals, an animal rights group sued me. They insisted that I was confining wild animals against their will.
They argued the accommodations were too restrictive, and it was cruel and inhumane
to put so many animals in a confined space.
Then the EPA ruled that I couldn't build the Ark until they'd conducted an environmental impact study on your proposed flood.
I'm still trying to resolve a complaint with the Human Rights Commission on how many minorities I'm supposed to hire for my building crew.
Immigration and Naturalization are checking the green-card status of most of the people who want to work.
The trades unions say I can't use my sons. They insist I have to hire only Union workers with Ark-building experience.
To make matters worse, the IRS seized all my assets, claiming I'm trying to leave the country illegally with endangered species.
So, forgive me, Lord, but it would take at least 10 years for me to finish this Ark.
Suddenly the skies cleared, the sun began to shine, and a rainbow stretched across the sky.
Noah looked up in wonder and asked,
'You mean you're not going to destroy the world?' No,' said the Lord.
Point for Stinky Fred and his red headed step kids...
18:35 Jun 04 2008 Times Read: 2,643
And the drama goes on with Fred. Now- let's look at this from the start. I called this man and he was to come out Friday to look at the trailer. I told him the size and that it has two porchs on it. He never showed but called me two hours later to tell me he could not find me, as per my directions, so ... it would be $350.00. He is to start in the morning. This is the man that was to been here Saturday Morning- no show or call.
Monday I called another company and he comes out to the trailer and looks- tells me $400.00 but he will not be able to do the work till the 20th. Ok- I have to wait... I have to wait. *sigh*
So the first man called yesterday pm. Said he had trouble with family blah blah blah and blah blah. He tried to call me on Sunday but could not get a answer. ---.--- I was home all weekend.
I calmly listen and said "That is fine." Those key words let you know this- I am pissed but I need something you have so I am going to bit my tongue and look like I care about your problems.
Yes- I am a bitch.
So then he tells me he would be here this morning at 8:00 am sharp. I come to work, knowing he would be late and sure thing- around 9:40am he calls and is running a little late. ---.--- "That is fine."
He calls about 20 mins later and tells me he is lost so I have to talk him to my place as he drove. What? BIG warehouse and trucks hard to freaking see. Sorry to be such a bother... "That is fine."
Then we meet- he has no crew with him but for his 10 year old son. O.o He looks at the trailer, and the space, out of 140 ft its about a 50 foot, that you can get the underpinning off. Porchs ... did I not tell him I had porchs? He tells me he will get the insulation pulled out today but will need to find help to put the new back up. "That is fine" Hell- winter is still months away. Sure I can get it replaced by then.
I leave him... and he calls me on his cell about 30 mins later. "I can't reach the one end as the trailer is only about two foot of the ground." And??? The guy is thin as a board... doing the math.... he would fit. "That is fine. I might can get someone else to replace that area." "You need to tear up the porchs flooring as I can't get the underpinning off with it there. And on one side I need to dig out the carport and braces you have holding the gravel up. Its going to cost at least another $350.00"
That is when it became not fine. "You know what? How about you just leave it. I told you on the phone that porchs covered most of the trailer. And I am not ripping any of them up." The other man never told me anything about ripping off porchs, or digging up my driveway and back porch area. But then he did not look or act like a reject of a drug testing company.
"Well... I am just..." Grrrrr... "If you had shown up on Friday to look at the job you would of known what it involved. I am not paying you $700.00 for a job that sounds like you are not able or willing to do. Thanks anyway." He left by the time I went up to check on him. Nothing had been done.
*thump as my forehead hits the desk, then looks up at god*
It was the red headed step child remark, wasn't it? Come on! I was just joking!!
LOL
You know- if it wasn't for the stink... this would just be funny.
*huggles the rat* You know you are always welcome in my journal dearest.
22:08 Jun 02 2008 Times Read: 2,768
You know when you read peoples words and you kind of get to know them.... but not really. I just posted to TheHellequin journal about him closing his Coven.
All of those without forum post only gets you to level 26, no further, trust me I know. The Prince's Mark makes you need much less forum post. I'm not saying that is what is keeping you there. You need around 240-250 to make sire with everything else. That is about the minimum amount of post you can get there with. Unfortunately I had everything else fully covered. I just don't like the forum, so I had the minimum amount. lol It needed to be done though, I just wish it had been done a little at a time. Things will work out as they are meant. The sire's that dropped will either recover or not. No biggie.
I have 73 forum post- had to go look to find out. hahah
In that case then I might just drop out of Sire. No big deal to me as all I ever got out of being one was the ability to leave a Coven. And I do not plan to leave my House. So....
It has to be the combination of Cancer's and Images' marks that are keeping you at Sire. I'm maxed out on page views, time spent and ratings, and, with just Nihonin's mark, I still dropped to Necromancer because of the lost posts. It happens though, no big deal. :)
The other day my neighbor, who is blonde, came running up to me in the driveway and stood jumping up and down for joy! I didn't know why she was jumping so excitedly. She said, 'I have some really great news!'
I said, 'Great. Tell me why you're so happy.' She stopped jumping and, breathing heavily from all the jumping up and down, told me that she
was pregnant! I knew she'd been trying for a while so I told her, 'That's great! I couldn't be happier for you!'
Then she said, 'There's more!' I asked, 'What do you mean 'more'?' She said, 'Well, we are not having just one baby. We are going to have
TWINS!' Amazed at how she could know so soon after getting pregnant, I asked her how she knew.
She said .... 'Well, that was the easy part. I
went to Wal-Mart and they actually had a home pregnancy kit in a TWIN-pack. Both tests came out positive!'
Ones who believe that only them are important and the rest are just s___ and that everyone owns them something.
Ones who have to rebel and whine at everything.
Ones who blame others for their own mistakes.
Ones who are contradictory.
Ones who are confused.
04:08 Jun 01 2008 Times Read: 2,119
GRRRR! I mean just GRRR! Working on a new profile- want something new. I used the code from Coven of the Forbidden Fruit but I can't get the Welcome spot on the right side to show- its all black for some reason. And I really want to change the comment box from its ugly white to black with silver font.
Oh well... gives me something to work on as I am in no rush to change. And strange as it sounds I am liking trying to understand how to do this. :)
Taking a break and seeing Otters new picture I also remember I need to do another pic for the new layout. I have a idea for one. I just need to take the day and play with makeup- the look.
COMMENTS
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LadyChordewa
00:06 Jul 01 2008
I believe that in military bases you can be thrown out of the house for being too disruptive to the neighborhood. i could be wrong but I seem to remember hearing that somewhere.
Inspector is on your side hon. Stand proud!!
meeper
00:31 Jul 01 2008
~Hands rat a rum and coke~ That bitch got nothin' on you or your family.
Joli
02:47 Jul 01 2008
It isn't healthy to hold it all in, dear. ;)